hais. today very sad. came back to sch. almost all the time faking a smile. wwo hai shi hen xiang nni. hen ai nii. hais. why must this happen. i still love u alot really, im really very sad. i thought i can forget u. but its so obvious. i cant. i still love u. love u more then anything else. those wonderful memories are all gone. they cant be found back anymore. ilu ilu ilu ilu. hais. i know its hopeless. talking shit here wont change anything.

woohoo yesterday went to JJ's autography session ! i very sad cnt go his concert. so damn sad, i very qi gek can. sobbs ~ but then yesterday when he came out. i so damn excited and i was screaming like hell. he so near me. omg den he so shuai ! i went with mel n wann. omg i love JJ i love him so much. den i shaked his hands twice ! his hands so nice ((: really lors. really don feel like washing hand. hees. so grateful to wann ! she got another cd den lend me. let me go up again. i love JJ !! i cnt describe my love and respect for him. and i cnt belief i would have a chance to shake his handd! OMG. i really mad liao lors. lols. i love JJ ! mwass ! i would support him dao di. he so wonderful and have so much MEI LI. lols.

hii. today bel bring yvonne go cut hair. den very funny. bring not enuf money. den call me for ''help''. lols so funny can. den after that they come my hse awhile. den i helped bel create a blog. her blog is http://belbel--.blogspot.com . hhass. everybody pls link herr kkies. cya ((: btw. astrid changed her blog to http://purple-enigma.blogspot.com . pls relink cya.

hais. this few days so many things happen. i don understand why things will turn out like that. i mean, let us just be happy. don gloom over smth for so long barhs. we will always be there for u. and i didnt mean to make a fool of u. why did u misunderstood? really i didnt. if u really think that way. den i just can say. sorry its all my fault. im so stupid. talk also duno how to talk properly. coz im stupid i know that. and i will of coz stand on your side. not his side. u are my best fren. u know im reli sad when u misunderstood me. why does it sound like my fault? im not saying is anybody's fault but i just don want us to be reminded of nick again. since everything is over. we just get over it. thats my only meaning. im not shutting u off or making a fool or what. hais. maybe its reli my fault barhs.

hais. i still cnt forget u. why am i saying this kinda fei hua here. hais. bye

Hello eveybody. im going to be happy and i will be. thks ((: everybody take care..

its all over now.. i cannot do anything nor say anything. i don have zi ge to do that. you are forever gone. its a breakthrough for u ? its hell for me. ya maybe its really time to let go.. im living in hell now. crying out my heart. for a person who don even care. i am suffocating. its hell . hell. i wish i was dead.

OH YEA.. NOW VERY GD.. HAHAHAHAHHAHA...now he is blaming me.. i ask him why never tell me den he say is i never check properly. wa lao. they anyhow put the names to mr yeo. den we don even know lor. yeaa very happyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i very happyy now......... yes. and my f-in mom is screaming at me. good. im going mad. its all my fault! happy? is i never check the situation? continue la. i had enough le okay. i REALLY HAD OKAY. IM WONDERING WHETHER U ARE FAKING IT. I HATE IT. I HATE EVERYTHING IM GOING MAD. GOOD ITS ALL MY FAULT. GOOD. VERY GOOD. MARVELLOUS. NOW DEN OKAY ISIT..

hii everybody.. now in sch library finding informations on our history project. make me feel so irritated now. don even have information lor. den our part also so difficult. den still so many words. shit lor. suan le. i don want to talk liao. i hor very fan now. y don have info de.. sob. den i also very hungry. bye.

hahas. today whole day doing hmk. so happy. hahas. im glad its just some misunderstandings. thks wc for helping me. im alright. (:

wo tu ran lei le. can u don make me feel this way? can someone make me disappear from this world? i will be so glad. really.. thanks. why must me n mel be so cham. mel is really very very sad. mel pls cheer up.. u still have me. really. if nth happened wouldnt it be great? i wonder.. i want to change back the time. but its all too late. wo zhen de lei le. im a great big fool reassuring myself he is busy everyday. i cannot take it anymore. i feel like crying. crying all day. its raining now. what a great day. when im sick. i care for him more than i care for myself. does he even know that? not in a million years. yes im such a failure. pls let me die. crying doesnt make a difference right? but i cannot control it anymore. ppl will say im a crybaby. but i really cnt do anything except cryin. im so lonely. my family.. all. i hate it. why must ppl treat me like that? when i treat ppl gd the results returned arent the same? WHY WHY WHY??????????????????? i still love u alot. just like what mel feels. mel cheer up pls. i can see ur heart is bleeding. hais.....